My motivation rate fluctuates accordingly with my mood swings.
When I’m happy, I’m highly motivated.
Hence, I am a productive worker, I spring ideas from my fingers, and everybody would absolutely love me, I think!
But when I’m angry or upset, that is IT!
Don’t talk to me and don’t mess with me, I once told a Superior.
Yes I did that.
He was obviously shocked by that and he said:
“If I were to make you take over my place one day, I’m pretty sure all of the Consultants will just freak out when they see you like this”.
I don’t know what makes me annoyed so much.
Like right now, I’m not happy coz people have moved over to the area where I’m sitting.
Before this, it was just me and another girl.
So we had all the space to ourselves.
I can put my coffee mug on one table, my handbag on another, and I’d do my work at another table.
That was how luxurious it was.
But now, I’m confined to a table that’s not even 2 arms length, and I can only move probably 10cm to the left and 15cm to the right.
I can’t breathe!!! This space is killing me.
People wear different perfumes, hence bringing different smells.
I’m suffocating.
I opted to sit elsewhere, but I was told that the vacant bigger space is only for Managers.
Oh yeah I forgot, I’m not one.
I told them that I’m claustrophobic.
They laughed.
Boleh blah!
Get me out of here, put somewhere on a project…
Put me anywhere but here.
Today, I hate everyone and everything.