I am trying really hard to focus right now, I have gotta get this proposal and another presentation deck out of my way. Yes I know I’ve been complaining that I didn’t have anything to do bla bla bla and now that work has finally been loaded on me, my mind and body are kinda rejecting it. I guess I have been spoilt over the last 3 months. Or maybe because it’s the unwell season kicking in?

There are so many things on my mind right now. It’s boggling inside, and hell I don’t know how to deal with it. One minute, I’m Miss Cheery Sunshine, and the next minute I’m a Miss Gloomy Ribut Petir. I do wish that my latter alter ego won’t come out and starts leashing out everything.

God, please give me some sanity.

I know many have OCD – Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. And I’m one of them – openly admitting it. I don’t think OCD is a disease macam penyakit yang teruk, but to an extent, just a habit that a person does significantly more than others.

I arrange my clothes in the closet in accordance to colors. I start with light range of colors to dark. Pendek kata, macam arrangement dalam kotak pensel Stabilo. And also, I arrange my clothes according to ‘types’ – baju duduk rumah, baju tido, baju nak gi clubbing, baju keluar casual, long sleeves, sleeveless, and sports attire. So I know if anyone tried to ‘rompak’ my closet – esp when the colors got jumbled up or suddenly baju tido type ada kat bundle baju clubbing.

I clean my bathroom especially the washing basin every time. I don’t like the stain of toothpaste and what-u spit-from-your-mouth stain. I know that the same thing is gonna happen the next time someone brushes his/her teeth the next minute, but I just have to clean it all the time.

I like my things in order. I like my things to be placed according to the right spot. I don’t like if someone moves the table lamp by an inch, or move the sofa slightly to the side and stuff. What I have is all the measurement that can allow people to move and place things nicely without even having to make too much movements.

So...what's yours?

can they interpret it differently?
So the spotlight news now is perhaps to get answers from the many questions on the missing-boy-recently-found or returned case. My heart goes out to the boy & his family. It must have been hell for them for losing him during that period.
I’m sure that the authorities are doing their best to get to the bottom of this. I want to know what really happened to the kid as well during his disappearance. Did he really get chicken pox hence the bald head? Was he really made to beg on the streets hence the blisters and peeling out skins on his feet and hands? Did he really try to cross the street on his own when the lady saved him from getting hit? It gets more interesting day by day, don’t you think?

And…if you read the stories written in the newspaper, do you realize that the journalists repeat the same thing in every single story although under different headlines? This story had been going on for 2 weeks, do they really need to write about “the father was in the changing room when Yin went missing”, and “the mother was watching the other son aged 4”. I mean, you’ve wrote it in your other entry, you don’t have to repeat it again in another entry in the same newspaper on the same day!

And the fact that some people claimed that they’ve seen the boy begging on the street, why don’t they just report it to the police? Like duh rite! Why only tell now when the boy has been ‘returned’ to the family? And hmmm…how ‘convenient’ this case is that they found the boy is a slow learner?

Sigh. Perhaps I should become one of those who work on CSI...or Law & Order: SVU. :p

stop on red
Why do some drivers in this country are freaking ignorant and freaking stupid!??!!

In the past 2 weeks, I almost got into an accident 3 times! Not because I drive wrecklessly, but some drivers just don't understand the rule of "Stop On Red". Hello, if the light turns red, it means you have to stop, you moron! You don't accelerate and just zoom forward! Itu pun nak kena ajar ke?

And lagi satu, why dont cars stop before zebra crossing and let the pedestrians pass? Wasnt that supposed to be a rule also?

Unerwuenscht
I was told that I would be sent to Frankfurt for 1-month for a project. Boy was I ecstatic! Then, they changed their mind. Suddenly, experience became an issue. Not working experience, but years of service! I was like…what? Years of service? What exactly do u mean? Oh they are selecting another person because that person has been here longer than you have. By like what…3 months??? Come on la, what’s your freaking problem? How can years (or maybe in this case – months) of service can suddenly be a requirement measurement? I went home and I cried.

And just when I thought that I had overcome that misery, I was told again that I might have the chance to go with a lower charge out rate. Fine, not my decision when it comes to financial matters rite. So I was all ready to get my ass on the plane. I started doing research bout Germany, practiced some German words etc...

...And then, my joy was short-lived one more time after that. Now they say there’s only 1 spot left in the team, they can’t take 2 people for this project. Obviously I was put in a very awkward position now. Am I going or am I not going? Turns out that I’m only a second choice. I should have known this right from the start! Why do people always like to instill high hopes and then they take it away?

my baby boo
I’ve always been a person that wants a lot of things. Be it tangible or intangible ones. At times, I envy those who have more than what I can have. But that doesn’t mean I want to live their lives. I am a true believer of you will be a much happier person when you have or own things that sort of like completes your life – at that point of time.

When it comes to materials that I want to buy or want to have, I’d do my all to get them. Sometimes I save, and sometimes I play the ‘give and take rule’ with someone – you buy (give), I take :p
And obviously that someone is my husband.

I wanted a new triband handphone – reason being, if I were to travel to countries like Korea or Japan, at least I don’t have to rent-a-phone. And so I bought it.
Then I wanted new working shoes – which in the end I bought 3 pairs and I only have worn 1 pair so far.
Then the usuals of wanting new cosmetics, clothes, handbags – ok let’s put that onto the list and wait for my next salary.
Oh and I also wish that I can get a raise by doing absolutely nothing.

And recently, a lot of times I find myself staring at babies – with feelings of happiness and loads of hearts and flowers floating around. It happens almost every time – at shopping malls, at kedai makan, while I’m walking on the streets, practically everywhere and every time. Yes, I want to have a baby. I do.