NO...i did that?
Ok I’ve got a funny thing to share…on my stupidity!

It’s been 37 months since I last updated my CV on jobstreet. Well not that I am looking for a job (not yet), but I just thought that hey after 3 years working maybe I should just update my CV and see if jobstreet can actually match me to a better job.

So I opened up the jobstreet site, and goodness gracious I still remember my log-in ID and password! That is truly unbelievable coz I usually forget what are my IDs and passwords! The second that I clicked “view my resume” or whatever, I laughed instantly at the picture that I posted 3 years ago! OH MY GOD what was I thinking posting a casual picture of me wearing a native dance costume on my CV??? Yeah though the costume fully covered my body but come on…in native dance costume?? Arrghhh…no wonder my CV was never viewed!

Itu time menari gelek punya gambar dowh!

what did u say i was?
So someone said I’m fierce. Like betul ke? Maybe yes, maybe not. Only those who know me can actually tell how fierce I can be. Like my youngest brother would know how fierce I am. He must have hated me to bits for lecturing him during inappropriate times like…when he was out hanging out with friends at 2am, or when he was out jamming or best still, when he was sleeping and I woke him up coz I wanted to nag! But I did that for his own good. I just didn’t want him to be some kutu lepak and not knowing what to do with his life. And I’m glad that soon he’ll don the pilot uniform and someday would be called Captain. So tak sia2 for lecturing him.

So erm back to the topic of garang. I normally ask people how they perceive me the first time they see me. Most said shy, some said cold. OK!! Shy…yep at times…especially when I’m around new people. Cold…well…cold can also be resultant from shy rite? Or maybe I’m just self-absorbed? Hahaha. No…it takes me a while to warm up and also to open up. And sometimes when I get too comfortable, I’m afraid of the things that might come out from me. Hahah!

But me fierce? Erm dunno lah. Maybe strict to a certain extent. I believe in my values and principles. And sometimes when people push me to my limits, I don’t hesitate to tell the person off. I’m not heart-less, I just don’t like to be annoyed.

It must have been like 3 or 4 weeks since i played paintball...but u know what? I still have this black mark on my both arms as a result of kena tembak during the game. It just wont go away. Sure the bruises are now gone, but the black mark stays!

U know how sometimes u dont want to offend anyone by telling them the truth about BOs? but how else to do it eh? Either u corner him to one corner and tell him (but i guess u cant stand the smell rite)...or make a joke like..."is that a new perfume you're wearing...gosh it's a bit strong, isn't it?". OR bring a kid to tell the person off. Sometimes kids are not afraid in telling the truth! Seriously. They are not afraid to tell you if you're fat or smelly.

I was toying with the idea of joining the Amazing Race Asia season 2. My ideal partner would be… Sumi, my best friend. Why her and not Azman? Perhaps with Sumi I argue less. Hahaha! I probably can coordinate better with someone who has better coordination skills. Not that I’m saying Azman has no coordination skills. You see, his sense of direction is rather bad…we would probably ended up arguing about how to get there rather than finish the race in peace. But I still love him to bits. Sumi & I are probably not the most athletic women around, well if we can’t do much of the physical tasks, we’d just do brains! Shit! The closing date is this 30th March! So should I try? Or should I wait for the 3rd season?

Yesterday there was a power disruption at TH Perdana due to some emergency work repair. As a result, all electricity power had been cut off and that included the lifts as well. When I received the call from a colleague bout that news, I was in KLCC – happily shopping. And he told me that 80% of the people have left. Ok great!! Can balik rumah yippie!!! And just to make sure that I wasn’t being fooled into this whole thing, I called my boss and he confirmed that almost everyone had left since the work repair was scheduled to only be completed by 5pm…and at that time it was only 1pm. Best nya!!

And as a result, I shopped coz I was bored. I bought 3 pairs of shoes – and I am dead broke now! So tak best ok!!!

Today, I was having lunch with my best friend when we talked about some girls from school.

- Like who recently got married other than me
- Like who recently got pregnant or just delivered babies – not me
- Like who did we bump into dekat Giant or mamak
- Like what happened to the girl that we used to hate in school

But what shocked me was when she said… “Oh someone told me that there was a rumor that a girl our batch committed suicide”. My jaw just dropped open. Serious? Oh my god. Not that we knew who it was, but we could have probably known her…and that was the scariest part.

Tomorrow, perhaps happier news?

hmmm
Seriously, what would you do when you’re in your second month in your job and you STILL have nothing to do? Are you gonna jump with joy and let it be forever this way…or are you going to start annoying your Managers in full dosage of daily whines? I can’t stand it. I probably have gained 3 kgs by just slugging in this chair, there is hardly any movement except for when I go to the ladies or when I walk to the pantry which is just like 20 steps from where I’m sitting. Blegh!

Was chatting with a colleague just now when the topic of our conversation was “crush”. Yes we all have crush/crushes, haven’t we? And the funny thing about crush is that, the person doesn’t even know that you actually have a crush on him/her. So I had a crush this one time last year. To a guy who works in the same building as I was. And u know when it comes to bumping into your crush, u sometimes go tak tentu arah when the truth is, the crush doesn’t even know anything bout u. I usually bump into him when taking the elevator, or at Austin Chase. So one day, we were taking the same elevator up to our respective floors…and at that time my hands were full of carrying so many things – my handbag, laptop, a paper bag and a cup of coffee. The fact that it was only the 2 of us in the elevator made me nervous that I could feel my sweat dripping in the full air-conditioned building. So this guy being a gentleman, pressed the button to the floor that I was going to…and he just knew what floor it was before I could even said a word! So I was like thinking…ohh someone is also noticing. Haha! And I was blushing for no reason, and instead of saying ‘Thank You’…I said ‘Welcome’. And then I just froze. I was like…bloody hell, why do I have to be stupid? Welcome??? Ya rabbi, cepat la sampai 17th floor. And I didn’t know why I didn’t correct myself after I’ve said ‘welcome’. Malu beb. He must be laughing like hell deep inside! Gawd! And that awful few seconds in the elevator was the most un-impressive moment ever to be stuck with a drop dead gorgeous hunk!

I love food but cooking is something that I’m not good at. Plus, I really don’t like frying chicken or fish or even go near to burning cooking oil in the frying pan. So my simplest solution is always to use the best technology in cooking that is microwave, and quoting Pon, “hanya di hujung jari”. Masukkan makanan anda, dan tekan butang dengan meggunakan jari. So one day, back in NZ, I came back from an afternoon class and I was really hungry. I was even lazy to even cook instant noodle. So I took out some fish fingers from the fridge and put it in the microwave and set it to I dunno…maybe 7mins kot? So after 7 mins, I checked out on the fish fingers. Only to find that the fish fingers size has shrunk from the size of half my palm to the size of my thumb! And it was bloody hard that you probably need a hammer to break it! And from the golden-orange fish finger, it turned to be black. Hitam legam! Sigh.

the windows of life
Sometimes, whatever happens in this world has a very cryptic meaning. You and I understand things differently. How we all look or view at things, is always different from every perspective, every angle. Many times I find myself being caught in an argument just because I've got different views and different perceptions from the other person. It sucks for not always being able to come to an agreement, but it makes me realize that what I think seems to be right is always not so right sometimes. You see, there's always a two side of the story. How you want to meet in the middle is up to you. All I know is, if u walk away with u-only-think-what-u-think-is-always right, then too bad. And I hate it when the other person does just that. Walking away without even trying and wanting to understand the logic behind it. Sucks even more when I'm left alone thinking that it is my own fault that things become messy.

with flying colours
So the SPM results came out recently, with a big hu-ha on a girl who was informed that she has received perfect 19 1As, when in reality she only scored 14 1As. Poor soul. If I were to be the person who has given that false information to the girl & family and the media, I would have fled the country already.

But something else cross my mind while reading all this joyful news of people passing their SPM scoring As in 19 subjects, 16 subjects, 14 or 12 subjects or whatever. How on earth did they have the time to study all 19 subjects? Did they only sleep and eat books last time? Or probably they have good intelligent genes…but still… didn’t you kids fool around in school? What fun did you all have lah? Or perhaps…studying was a fun thing?

I don’t know… I can’t imagine if I were to take 19 subjects at once! Already when I took 9 subjects for SPM last time – I kinda struggled… to add another 10?? No thank you! Why would people wanna take 19 subjects in SPM? For example, in many cases that I see, they took Physics, Chemistry and Biology…and they still took General Science as one of the subject? What for? Isn’t General Science like very general?? It was probably so easy for the pure science student to score in the General Science subject coz they obviously learn much more in the 3 pure science subjects! And…if they really wanna be in the science stream, why on earth did they still sit for Arts subjects like Accounts, Commerce & Economics? Why…nak menyusahkan diri?

When asked what are the reasons of their success? So you hear them say, “pay 100% attention in class”, “ulangkaji”, “buat latihan”…
And when I asked myself back that question: shucks I never paid enuff attention in class, in fact, I was writing letters to my deskmate who sat next to me (macam duduk jauh giler kan). If we were not in class, we would be somewhere dekat padang sekolah, or chilling on the sofa in the prefect’s room, or perhaps lepak in someone else’s class yapping away. Did I ulangkaji pelajaran? Ermm…is flipping through pages considered ulangkaji? Buat latihan? Copying someone else’s Add Maths homework considered buat latihan? Those were the days…

celake and cwinkle
Sometimes, I laugh at people when they can’t pronounce a word correctly. Hey I know I’m not close to perfect and sometimes I may mispronounce some words or even stumbled in constructing a sentence…but here’s why I laugh at them.

One day, Azman & I were in Puchong – looking for a mamat jual dvd. Since we are not really familiar with that area, therefore we were just driving around near the shop lots and we targeted most of the kedai mamak – thinking that those Ah Bengs would be selling dvd from table to table. Then we saw this Ah Beng with the most jinjang karat hairstyle walking around in his knee-torn jeans and his sling bag on his side. So we stopped and called him. As usual, Azman calls all Ah Bengs jual dvd ‘Ah Kiong’.

Azman: Kiong! Kiong! Apa dvd lu ada?
Ah Kiong: Oh ada manyak celita balu. Bos mau celita apa?
Azman: Cerita best la. Itu cerita hantu ada ka?
Ah Kiong: Oh ada manyak. Celita hantu ada, sedih ada, perang ada, celake pun ada.
Azman: Hah? Apa itu cerita celake? Tak baik punya movie ka?
Ah Kiong: Eh ini celita celake manyak baik punya woo... (and he showed us Meet the Fockers movie)
Azman: Kenapa u kata ini celita byk celake?
Ah Kiong: Aiyah, kalau bos tengok ah, ketawa saja...

And at that point of time, we understood that celake was meant to be kelakar! Ada nak kena hempuk Ah Beng ni tau. Buduh!


The other day, I told my niece to sing some songs that she has learned. So she sang Twinkle Twinkle Little Star in her own version:

“Cwinkle cwinkle little star
Au I wonder wac you ar
Up above de world so aiiii
Like to die in de skaaiiii”

Ok I can accept the cwinkle and the wac…but to die in the sky? My dear child…who on earth taught you to sing like that? Bibik! Ada jugak yg nak kena hempuk bibik nih.
The other day she sang Barney too, but I couldn’t even spell the words she sang… kids are just adorable kan?

I HATE...
I'm in a foul mode this morning. Mainly because of the stupid car pile up on federal high way this morning that caused thousands of us to be stuck in a traffic for almost 45 mins! Yeah shit happens I know, but I'm just angry because...because...I don't know. Because I hate being stuck in a traffic okay.

I hate coming to work. I'm just...bored!

I hate when people don't deliver their promises. Worse still, when they pretend forgetting what they have promised.

I hate putting off work to tomorrow. What you can do today, do it. Because you may have other things to do tomorrow. And...when you're not done with what is expected out of you, you make others impatiently wait for you. Come on, how long does it take to print a payslip...or read a 6 pager document...or even doing the dishes????

I hate sitting in this cramp place. Get me somewhere!

the pics are here!
hailie group before the paintball game. why hailie?? tell me why hailie??

Whine #1:
This morning, I saw a pretty lady walking out from my office building. But her dressing disturbed me somewhat. She was wearing a blue baju kurung with black sequins scarf - the kind of scarf that people would normally wear to attend weddings or dinners. While I thought the scarf was tad 'over' to wear to work, I almost fainted when I saw her feet. She was wearing a black fish-net stockings with a 0.5 inches pump shoes!!! And I couldn't help myself but to smirk and sighed Oh My God! I'm not saying that I have such a perfect fashion sense, but sometimes I wonder why people dress up like that to go to work. Did they even look at themselves in the mirror before stepping out from the house?

Whine #2:
I hate it when people take my things without telling me. Be it at home or at work. Well it's only a matter of respect right - asking permission to use my stuff! Recently, my favorite cup that I brought from home to the office has gone missing. Well, the cup can't walk or crawl by itself, so someone else must have taken it rite? Come on, why do people need to use someone else's cup? Don't you have your own cup? I really don't like sharing my utensils ok. I brought two cups from home, and both are missing. Next time, I'm just gonna bring a darn ugly cup without my name on it and I wanna see if that cup will also go missing.

Whine #3:
Have you ever found yourself swearing at an unknown driver for not being mindful about parking spots in a public parking place? They think they own the parking spot, or they think they're the only ones who park their cars there! Like hello...can you please park your car inside the yellow box instead of parking your car in the center of two parking spots? And dude, you're driving a Kancil, not a bus!