home alone
i was left alone yesterday. he is outstation again for these 2 days. i thought of going back to mom's, but then i thought, i cant be forever staying at mom's when sayang is not around. so i decided that i'd stay at the condo by myself. i dont know what is disturbing me everytime i'm left alone in the house. ok the security is pretty tight, there are neighbours on my floor, i lock the doors and shut all the windows, i can sleep with the lights on, i can draw the curtains if i dont want to look what's outside the windows, i can lock my bedroom door... so what is it? i dont know... it's probably not the 'orang-jahat' kind that scares me more, but perhaps the 'benda-benda halus' around us kot??!! i dont know. i can be pretty imaginative on things sometimes.

i asked 2 of my girl friends to come and stay over but none of them could come. one says that she doesnt wanna be stuck in the jam goin to Shah Alam in the morning, and the other is busy prepping for a conference somewhere. so i guess it's me alone at home.

i went out for a movie in OU last nite with some friends. i was told that the movie is called hit & blast. but when i got into the cinema, i was like...ehh aku cam penah tengok je citer nie. and when i saw the actors - jason statham, ryan philippe and wesley snipes... laaa ni bukan citer chaos ke? i thot i've watched this movie months ago... on a DVD. and the picture was clear lagi. but then takpelah... at least im not home by myself. so throughout the movie, my mind was racing with the acts on the screen... i could remember each and every detail of what was gonna come up in the next scene. it's a good movie though. and the fact that i love jason statham... he's so cool... and good looking kan? and i love him in his other movie..."Crank". gets your adrenaline rush going. but while waiting for the rest in front of the theatres, there were posters of other movies like Kuntilanak la, and some other mengarut movies la. i'm like... shit...why did i look at these posters? these images would probably be playing in my head when i wanna go to bed tonite. darn it.

there is a blog that i just stumbled on. http://kennysia.com
ok maybe i've not been so updated on what's going on in the world anymore and the fact that he's been blogging for 2 years and i'm only discovering it now coz i was listening to hitz.fm this morn on the way to work...and that was when the morning crew spoke of kenny and his blog. actually they were promoting the charity event happening on saturday at La Bodega BSC... collecting school stuff for the flood victims in johore. they have a good heart. i probably wanna go and donate some things myself. ok the point is, kenny writes cool sutff...and pretty entertaining indeed. and i wonder how he has all the time in the world to blog such long entries and with cool high resolution photos some more. thumbs up to u dude.

okie dokie... it's friday... loosen you hair, have a blast weekend!

slugging it
tell me why is it that i'm about to sleep at night, bunch of blogging ideas rush into my head BUT i'm just so lazy to get up and switch on my damn computer.
but when the morning comes, i dont even remember anything at all. darn it!

i'm still lazing around in the office, but at least not yawning and stoning all day.
but wait, hang on, what's the diff?
oh anyway...
i've just been told that i will be staffed on overseas project.
i was just asked if i'd like to be on a project at South Africa!
my first expression was... SOUTH AFRICA? That is soo cool!
and then i thought, it's so DARN FAR.
are you really sending me there?
let's see what other projects in other countries...
Singapore (boring!), Europe (YES, I wanna go to Europe), Middle East (Hmmm I dont mind)...
a colleague just came back from Kuwait & India.
she said it was a lifetime experience.
ok...now my turn!
when i asked, how long is the duration of each project?
well...depends. sometimes weeks, sometimes months!
MONTHS??
hey if i was still single and unattached, i would be more than happy to go for months.
but i also dont wanna miss out on the opportunities!
ohh dont worry, u'll get flybacks!
okay...then bring it on.

a friend told me not to crap on stuff at work coz it can be pretty boring and depressing.
thanks mate!

inside my head
on my 1st day of work at the new company, people asked me... "how is it"?
i said: well...first day what do u expect! nothing interesting. i sit and stone all day.

on the 2nd day of work, they still asked me... "so...how is it"?
i said: nothing. i'm bored. i've been on msn all day.
they said: ohh please...enjoy it while u still can.

on the 3rd day, they asked me again... "it should be better now rite"?
i said: well... i dont know. i came in late today and now i wanna go home.
they said: why dont u just go home. u balik tido pun org tak perasan.

on the 4th day, i tried to be a good employee by reading some materials, but i got bored and i went window shopping!
when i came back, they told me that friday is an off day since saturday is a public holiday.
i was like.. "oh sweet. i love this company"

on the following monday, i went to work early, i got in before everyone else did and i anxiously waited for my boss to come in. today will be my 1st real day at work.
i was hoping to engage in some interesting conversations with him.
i wanted to know what projects i'm gonna be on next.
i wanna know what are the company's plans moving forward.
i wanna know how i can contribute and share my ideas.
at 11am, i popped by at his desk. he was busy but he still asked me to take a seat.
he asked me how i was doing and i told him that i want to be on a project before my brains gets rusty.
he laughed and he said "we'll talk again tomorrow after i have layed out the plans"
before i left his room, i asked if could leave early like at 5pm coz i needed to send off hubby to klia.
he looked at me and said... "why dont u go home now and spend time with him"
i looked at my watch... 11.45am. U gotta be kidding me rite?
nope, he wasnt kidding. and i packed my things and went home.
when i told syg, he asked me "eh...u ni keja apa nih"

i'm still adapting. i'm still learning the culture. i'm trying not to miss my ex colleagues so much.

on the other hand, i missed my table back in the old office, my phone and my space.
here everything is shared and hot-desking.
i was so used to have a parking spot of my own and never to worry on paying the parking fees.
now, i have to park out in the open air and worry if anyone would scratch my car, pay my own and walk across the street.
i miss all the kedai2 makan back in the old office. i can have my nasi lemak ganja everyday for all i care.
now...they mostly have fast food. and i'm not a fan of fast food.

i know i know...i complain too much.

new year...new blog...new stories
well it's already mid Jan of 2007!!! i know i've got lotsa stories to update, irregardless of whether or not people read my entries.

for a start, i'm starting a new blog coz i deleted the older one that i had. i accidentally deleted it. i was so devastated that all my entries since 2003 were gone in an instant. and the feeling of wanting to write a new blog didn't come around until recently. i was thinking hard what name should i put for my new blog, what title should be on it...but of all those that i chose, they were all taken. i guess, great minds think alike. :p

in the end, flushhead was what i chose. i dont know why...it just came to mind. so this is it.

heaps of things have happened along the way. i quit my job, i got married, i moved out from mom's to my own now, went for honeymoon, got to become a tai tai for a month, and i have just started my new job like 4 days ago.

i'm loving the new phase of my life now. 9th of December 2006 - marked as a very significant day for me as i was diijabkabulkan with the love of my life. in just one breath, sekali lafaz, we became husband and wife. hard to believe it, but it happened that night. everyone was all smiles...and i...almost shed my tears.

i'm glad i'm on this journey with him. bare with me for the many years to come yah!